The same way I went down, I came back up...|这一切似乎再次演绎的那句名言 ...
...gradually, and then suddenly.|...逐渐，然后突然。
The pills weren't a cure-all, God knows...|药物治疗不是万能的，天晓得 ...
...but they gave me breathing space...|...但是他们给我改变的可能 ...
...which allowed me to start writing again.|它让我得以再次拿起写作的笔。
Only this time it wasn't as if my life depended on it.|只是这次，他已不是我生命的唯一支柱。
七年后，伊丽莎白.沃泽尔的《少女初体验》出版了， 并且很快就成为了一本畅销全世界的读物。
仅仅在美国，每年就有3亿人次在使用着各种镇静剂。
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you gonna sleep with me tonight?|你今晚与我发生关系吗？
Don't say I didn't warn you.|别说我没警告过你。
- What's that supposed to mean? - It means don't say I didn't warn you.|-你指的是什么？ -就是别说我没警告过你。
Great.|很好。
I've been wanting so badly for sex to happen the right way...|我一直是如此的渴望性交能以这样一种完美的方式来临 ...
...with the right person, at the right time, in the right place.|与适当的人，在适当的时候，在适当的地方。
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I'd been saving my virginity for someone who truly loves me...|我一直保留着我的贞洁等待着那个真正爱我的人...
...who really knows the inside of me.|...那个真正进入我内心的男孩。
Noah wasn't it.|诺厄不是这样的人。
He told me afterwards that, in terms of absolute value...|他后来告诉给我，根据绝对价值观 ...
...sex and drugs were equally meaningless to him.|...性交和吸毒一样对他而言毫无意义。
Just two different ways to have fun.|仅仅是两种不同的寻求快乐的方法。
Which is all well and good...|两个都很不错 ...
...until a girl tries to have the same approach.|...只是性交还需要再有一个女孩。
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Lizzie, he's your father. He loves you.|利兹，他是你的父亲。他爱你。
No, you don't know what it was like.|不，你不知道这些事情。
When I was 8, we went to see The Last Waltz.|在我8岁时，我们最后一次一起去看华尔兹舞。
He passed out on tranquilizers.|舞会上他却因使用镇静剂昏厥。
I had to sit through the movie three fucking times before he woke up.|我一个人坐着，过了足够3部电影的时间，他才清醒。
What kind of a person does that?|现在你能理解他是怎么一种人了？
I didn't realize.|不可想象。
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That article...|那篇文章 ...
...it was just wish fulfillment.|那只是美好的愿望。
I was writing about how I wanted things to be.|我写的只是我真心希望的结果。
The way people talked about it...|人们总是那样看待它 ...
...the way you talked about it, it made it seem real.|...如同你也那样看待的，好像这些就是真实的了。
Well, maybe it can be.|好吧，也许是这样的。
No. It's just a dream I held on to for way too long.|不。这只是一个我保守的太久了的梦罢了。
I'm happy here. I don't need him anymore.|我能来这里仅仅是因为运气，我再也不要见到他了。
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His words twist and grind and hammer out a story for the brain...|他的说词荒诞，琐碎，将记忆砸成碎片 ...
...but his guitar and voice go straight for your heart.|...而他的吉他和唱声足以直穿你的心扉。
Music bellows from his insides, and out comes the struggles of the world.|音乐在他的身体里怒吼，翻滚着冲出。
Springsteen' like this garage-mechanic poet.|斯普林斯廷，这位象机修工一样诗人。
Music bellows from his insides.|他的肚子是音乐的风箱。
Out comes the struggles of the world, of knowledge that comes with perfec...|翻滚着冲出的音符，如此完美 ...
It' like he feels with knowledge that goes back through ages...|这种感觉，就像是在返老返童 ...
...to a single chord in our brains. That beacon that can be touched...|美丽的音符从一根根琴弦上跃然而下，冲刷着人们疲惫的灵魂 ...
He has the power of pure emotion.|如此纯净的情感。
Emotions so intense the body literally must do something...|不安的心绪使我们萌发了欲望的冲动 ...
- Out comes the struggles... - Fuck.|-激烈的斗争着 ... -该死的。
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I'm falling.|我很失落。
I can't even finish my article.|我甚至不能完成我的文章。
Maybe Noah' right. It' all a scribble.|或许诺厄是正确的。 那仅仅是一些胡乱的涂写。
I don't really have anything original to say.|我没有任何独创的风格。
Writing can't save me.|写作不能救我。
Even Harvard can't save me.|即使哈佛也不能救我。
How can I escape from the demons in my head?|我该如何逃离这些魔鬼似的胡思乱想？
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Hemingway has this classic moment in The Sun Also Rises.|当海明威完成他的巨著《太阳依然升起》时，也曾有过他最辉煌的时刻。
When someone asks Mike Campbell how he went bankrupt...|当某人问麦克·坎贝尔 他怎么会破产时 ...
...all he can say is, "Gradually, then suddenly."|他能说的全部是， "逐渐， 然后突然。 "
That' how depression hits.|那就是沮丧的破坏力。
You wake up one morning afraid that you're going to live.|当你清晨起来，惊恐地发现自己还得活下去。
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I raise her! I raise her all by myself with no help from you!|我抚养了她！我一个人把她抚养长大，你从未给我过一点帮助！
No help from me? I'm the one that does everything, I never get credit!|我从未给过一点帮助吗？我做了全部的事情，却从未得到过一丁点赞许！
You make all the decisions, and they blow up in your face!|是你做出全部的决定，最终眼睁睁看着他们彻底破灭！
- Do they not? - What are you talking about?|-然道不是吗？ -你说什么？
You do nothing for her! You do nothing for her!|你什么也没为她做过！ 你什么也没为她做过！
You never even see her!|你甚至从未来看过她！
You don't take her on vacations. You don't take her on the weekends.|你在度假时不会带他去。 你周末也从不陪她玩。
What the hell do you ever do for her, Donald?|你还以为你为他做过什么吗，唐纳德？
I am her father. I put her in the clinic, and you're looking in Manhattan.|我是她的父亲。我带她去医疗所， 然后你正好在曼哈顿看护她。
You son of a bitch! Goddamn, I hate you! I hate you!|你这狗娘养的！ 唐纳德，我恨你！ 我恨你！
I hate you, you son of a bitch!|我憎恶你，你这个狗娘养的！
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What I want is for someone to understand...|我所需要的仅仅是别人的理解 ...
...but they don't, really.|但却没有人是真心的，没有。
That makes the platitudes harder to bear.|那种陈词滥调令人难以忍受。
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Do you remember the first thing you wrote?|你记得自己写过的第一样作品吗？
A poem.|一首诗。
A poem. About what?|一首诗。 关于什么的？
My dad.|我的爸爸。
Can you remember anything it said?|你还记得那是怎样写的吗？
I told you, I don't wanna talk about my childhood.|我告诉过你，我不想要谈论我的童年。
I just... I feel so stupid, sitting in therapy.|我只不过 ...感到可笑，我现在居然坐在治疗室。
People have much harder childhoods than mine.|有许多人有比我们艰难得多的童年。
We're not talking about others. We're talking about you.|我们不必去讨论其他人。 现在说的是你。
I'll give her that much.|我告诉了她那么多。
I'm the problem.|我就是问题。
I worry about being in therapy.|我很担心接受这些治疗。
I worry about not being in therapy.|我更担心没有这些治疗。
I even worry I'm not entertaining enough for Dr. Sterling.|我甚至担心我会让斯特林博士对我彻底失去兴趣。
I just keep thinking that if I could just be normal...|我现在多希望自己只是个普通人 ...
...if I could just get out of bed in the morning, everything would be okay.|...我只祈求每天早上快快乐乐的醒来，这就够了。
Well, what do you think normal is?|嗯，你认为怎样算是正常？
Most people, they cut themselves, they put a Band-Aid on, keep going.|大多数人，当他们弄伤了自己， 他们就用绷带给自己包扎，继续前进。
And what do you do?|那么你呢？
I just keep bleeding.|我会让伤口肆意的流血。
So you think being normal is having a wound, putting a patch on it...|你认为正常人就是把自己弄伤，有若无其事的去包扎...
...then go on with your life?|然后继续原来的生活吗？
Isn't that what functioning is?|这就是绷带的作用吧？
Isn't that what living is?|这不是正是所谓的生活吗？
You know, you keep going, no matter what happens to you.|你知道，生活就会这样继续，不论发生什么。
Is that the way you wanna live?|那就是你所希望的生活吗？
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Rafe didn't seem to realize...|雷夫似乎还未意识到...
...he'd just been appointed to save my life.|我已将拯救自己的全部希望寄托于他。
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这也是我想对妈妈说的话
I dream about all the things I wish I'd said.|我梦见我向妈妈说出了我真心要说的那些话。
The opposite of what came out of my mouth.|与我今天所说的正好相反。
I wish I'd said, "Mom, please forgive me.|我希望对妈妈说，"妈妈，请原谅我。
Please help me.|请帮助我。
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- Hello. - Hey.|-你好。 -喂。
- Hi. - How' my birthday girl?|-嗨。 -生日过得怎样，我的女儿？
You're late. You're a day late.|你迟到了。你晚了一天。
What can I say, you know how it is.|我能说什么呢，你知道为什么。
Anyway, I thought I'd have to be dealing with your secretary by now.|不论如何，我认为我只能在现在和你私下交流。
You're such a bigshot journalist, writing for Rolling Stone.|你是一个多么风光的记者，为滚石乐队创作。
- Did you read it? - You know...|-你读过那篇文章了吗？ -你知道的 ...
...remember this, they're lucky to have you.
These guys, they're smart. They're really smart.|这些人，他们很精明。 他们真的很棒。
They know what they're doing. They can see talent.|他们知道他们正做什么。他们能看见从不埋没人才。
I'm probably gonna get assignments all over the country...|我能跟着他们环游全国...
...so I could maybe come visit you.|也许我会顺便去看望你。
Who are you talking to, Lizzie?|你在和谁说话，利兹？
- It's no one. - Who is it?|-没有人。 -谁的电话？
- It's no one. - Don't listen to her.|-与你无关。 -不要听她的。
Please, Mom.|妈妈，请你走开。
Look at you, the two of you.|看吧，你们两个人。
- Go on, you're so in love with him. - Mom.|-继续说吧，你如此爱他。 -妈妈。
Can you hear that? Hear why I don't call?|你听到了吗？知道我昨天为什么不挂电话了吗？
Where was he your childhood?|你还记得你的童年是在哪里度过的吗？
- Where...? - Stop it! Just stop it!|-你是在哪里 ...? -别说了！别说了！
I just wanted to talk to him!|我只是想和爸爸说几句话！
You know, Lizzie, I'm at the end of my rope.|你知道利兹的，我已经竭尽全力了。
I've been working extra hours. I never go out.|我将节假的时间全部用来工作。我从未去休假。
I never buy clothes. I spend all our money on your therapy.|我从未买过衣服。我把所有的钱花在你的治疗费上。
All our money? Daddy pays, Mom.|我们的全部钱吗？爸爸也要支付的，妈妈。
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You think he pays?|你认为他会付钱吗？
You think he's paying?|你认为他有为你的治疗付钱吗？
He doesn't pay one cent.|他没有支付一分钱。
Not one single red cent!|连一分钱都没有过！
That's not true.|那是不可能的。
Oh, you want me to show you? Huh? You wanna see?|噢，你想要我向你证明吗？嗯？你想要看看吗？
You want to see how much I'm paying, still paying...|你想要看看我为你支付了多少账单，还有多少没付...
...on your last term bill? Huh?|...就在你上个学期里？啊哈？
Here. Here, look at these. Look at these.|这里。这里，看这些。看这些。
- There, look at that, Lizzie. - I'm sorry, Mom.|-还有那里，看那，利兹。 -很抱歉，妈妈。
You wanna see how much I'm paying this Dr. Sterling?|你知道我为了请那个斯特林博士我得付多少帐吗？
I'm sorry.|对不起。
No, you're not gonna talk your way out of this.|不，你没必要跟我说这些。
Ask her who pays her!|你去问问她，是谁付钱请他她来的！
You know, it's my fault, for spoiling you the way I did.|你知道，这完全是我的错，我做的太多，宠坏了你。
I kill myself to get you to Harvard, and you come back looking like a zombie.|我自找苦吃的把你送到哈佛， 结果你回来看起来象一个恶魔。
I know. I'm sorry.|我知道。 对不起。
I'm so...|我太蠢了 ...
Why won't he?|他怎能这样做？
- Why won't he? - I know. I know, honey. I know.|-他怎能这样做？ -我知道。 我知道，宝贝儿。 我知道。
I hate myself, and I hate the things I do.|我憎恶自己，并且我憎恶我所做的一切。
Lizzie, it's all right. It's all right.|利兹，没关系。 没关系。
It's awful. It's so awful.|简直糟透了。乱透了。
And I hurt the people who love me.|我总是伤害那些爱我的人们。
But when he calls...|但是当他挂电话给我时 ...
My God, a party?|我的上帝，那是一个宴会吗？
And your stupid pear tart!|还有你的该死的梨果馅饼！
Why do you do this, Lizzie?|你为什么要这样做，利兹？
Because I'm not your goddamn monkey!|因为我不是你养的猴子！
I'm sorry, Mom, I didn't mean it. I'm sorry.|很抱歉，妈妈，我没说真话。对不起。
I didn't mean it.|我不是故意的。
I'm sorry.|对不起。
She threw the party for herself?|她为她自己准备的宴会吗？
No, I guess for Grandma.|不，是我猜为我的奶奶准备的。
Why would she want to do that?|她为什么要那样做？
To show her what a good little girl she was.|让他们看看她养了一个多么优秀的女儿。
That must really hurt.|那她一定很伤心。
